Letter to Jason from She Wasn't Soft (Creative Response C)

Dear Jason,

You are truly one of the most interesting people I have ever heard about. You seem to be a person, who has good intentions and a lot of love, but you misplace this love so much, and it is your errors which make you realize who you love and what you love about them. What triggers your indiscretions? Is it purely just weakness to lust that led you to rape Paula? Is it this rape which makes you see that you truly love Paula for who she is? This is what it seems it is to me as someone who has heard your story. Her drive is what really seems to attract you to her, is this why you gave her the cup of Gatorade with the Tuinal caps in it, when you realized that she was not Zinny Bauer? I think that you did this because you thought that Paula would lose her drive, the thing you loved so much about her, and that why you wanted her to fail. Is this true? You don’t seem as if you are greatly spiteful so I do not think that you really did this out of anger because you were so distraught after you raped her. However, I think that however good your intentions may be, your decisions to carry out certain actions is really troubling. You do not recognize the gravity of certain issues, so I suggest that you execute things after more forethought from now on. You seem to really care about Paula, and that is why you confront Zinny Bauer and try to drug her, however, you seem really conflicted with the way you love Paula, as if she were just an idealized woman who has the drive which you lack. She is also a real person who needs to be shown for sure that you love her, not in these twisted ways, which involve drugging people or picking fights. She is strong, but I do not know how much longer she can endure you, who has caused her so much pain. My advice to you is to really look at your life, and assess what your life amounts to without Paula, which is not much. You need her more than she needs you, sure she could be less selfish, but you must learn perseverance, and become driven. Find direction in your life, reflect and tame your instincts. You are a good guy who just does not reflect enough on situations. I wish you the best of luck in this endeavor to find out more about whom you really are, and how much you need Paula, and how you should love and respect her properly.
Sincerely,
Mike Verity